Realizing my life-long dream of being a stay at home mom, has left me a bit shell shocked. My ideas of what motherhood was supposed to be reflected more of a Disney movie and less of reality. It is not easy being the disciplinarian, cook, housekeeper, bookkeeper/money manager, doctor, teacher, potty trainer, and diaper changer. There are constant interruptions and the work is never done. Even though my husband is a tremendous help, I still feel so overwhelmed.
When the stress of juggling the mommy and wife responsibilities gets overwhelming, my mouth is the first thing to reflect it. The words I speak are not “a fountain of life” but that of anger and frustration. Proverbs 10:19 tells us, “when words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise.” I must be in constant prayer and ask God to hold my tongue and give me the right words to speak to my family.
I love my children and my husband more than life itself. More than anything, I want to reflect Jesus to them. I know that I’m not perfect and I won’t be until Heaven, but I hold on to the promise in Romans 8:28, “that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.”